i think my lips are too full, my eyes are too small, my nose is too small, my skin is too freckly, my legs are too short, my arms are too hairy, my boobs are too big and my hair is too frizzy. but so what? i’ll never be perfect. there will always be something i want to change about myself. many people have much bigger problems than their appearance like finding shelter for the night, food for their children and money for healthcare. i am ashamed that i am so materialistic but that’s the just society that i grew up in, there is little i can do to change that about myself.

I just wanted to say you looked beautiful tonight and I know you have a girlfriend but I can’t help the way I feel. I really regret all those chances I had to get with you that I missed. The annoying thing is that I think you give hints that you like me too but I’m not sure if you do or not because I’m never good at seeing when someone likes me because I could never see how someone could want to date me. I’m a total bitch, I have massive mood swings, I don’t have a good figure and the one thing that boys like about me, I hate because I hate thinking that that’s the only thing I’m good for. Sure, I have my moments when I make a good joke and sometimes my hair looks ok for once but compared to the other girls, I’m nothing. But, yeah. Everything would be so much easier if things happened the way they do in my head. C’est tout.